Limbo

I moved out of my apartment last week and will be living with my parents for the next two months before making the move to ATL. This is the ultimate step backwards in terms of being an adult, but I've come to a few realizations.

1) If I had kept on living with my parents, at the cost of my own social life and sanity, I would probably be in a much more optimistic financial situation.

2) I would've gotten my tubes tied months from the start after having to live with my 8-year-old half sister who is pretty much my antithesis.

3) I would've gained a considerable amount of weight after the frequency of eating out and the infrequency of working out.

4) I find that I'm never really on my schedule, just part of a bigger schedule that I either get to work around or justify.

No wonder that drama is always in our lives; it starts with family, especially one this big. Multiple marriages and multiple children from each weave a big web of Insanity that you can't get from Team Beachbody. Everything functions on multiple scales and schedules so that nothing is ever really convenient. Family planning could be an oxymoron. Is the key to function on your own and let things fall as they may? Or will the momentum of the whole overcome you? I'm the eldest after all is said and done. I think we all give ourselves some sort of hope, that our "grown up" lives won't be like this.

I love my family and their craziness. I love when things work out or seem to fix themselves after falling apart. But, I am so ready to start fulfilling everything that I've been planning for the last four months. So if you feel like getting me out of Limbo for a little while, send me a message and I'll be happy to oblige. I have every weekend planned from now until July, but I'm allowed to go out on school nights!

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Realization 5) I find that I have been talking/answering a lot more questions about my relationship. It's as if I'm trying to convince people that by moving down there, I will eventually be getting a marriage proposal out of it. Do we really have to talk ourselves into circles when making big decisions?

8 Questions to ask yourself before you move for love...reading these has becoming somewhat annoying and somewhat creepy that they are popping up right now of all times...

I have a plan A, plan B and plan C if this doesn't work. I have some security in my job and people all around that I turn to in case I'm in a less-than-desirable situation. Shouldn't that be enough? No legal documents have been signed yet. These precautions are more to make the worst-case scenario not hurt as much if it actually happens.