Xgirlfriends

I like to think that I can handle many things. There are very few things harder to deal with than the politics of crew and the ensuing consequent drama. But for some reason, there's always one thing that completely and utterly puts me on edge: an ex-girlfriend. It's like a rival coxswain that I seriously want to punish.

There's always the "good enough" factor, the competition of who is a better girlfriend. Who is prettier? who does he get along with more? who is the "marrying" girl, versus the "strictly for fun" girl?

Then there's the inescapability of it. There are always comparisons, stated or otherwise. It's like being haunted by someone you can't really overcome. Do you ever really know if the person who unconditionally makes you happy is really happy with you, comparatively? What could you possibly offer that could outweigh a past relationship that you have no clue about?

I'm always skeptical about these things. Otherwise, I seriously have no other reason to pause. It just doesn't feel right sometimes...